My inaction stems from a deep and overwhelming desire, a yearning to engage with all possibilities.

My inaction stems from a deep and overwhelming desire, a yearning to engage with all possibilities. I find myself paralyzed, unable to choose a single path because my heart longs to experience the totality of existence. The sheer volume of potential activities and experiences traps me in a state of inertia, as the desire to do everything ultimately prevents me from doing anything at all.

A New Yorker article, a Superstore episode, a YouTube video on traditional wives, a PDF to summarize, and a draft blog post are the five tabs that are now open in my browser. I get sidetracked, scroll about, read a bit, and promise myself I'll return later—but I never do.

Every day begins with a social media scroll. After 10 minutes, I give up on reading my book. I rationalize my use of Wordle and Connections as mental exercise. I decide to check into master's degree scholarships after browsing LinkedIn, but I rapidly get overwhelmed and dismiss all tabs.

I lie in bed at night, or occasionally on the floor, feeling overwhelmed by all the potential outcomes I can envision for my life. Writing, poetry, counseling, academia, teaching, and acting are some of my career goals. I want to see every movie on my list, listen to every excellent song ever recorded, bake pastries in the south of France, and study Portuguese, Italian, and French. I even want to go to bed early and remain up late!

Ironically, I end up doing nothing because I want to do everything.

It might be stressful to feel trapped and uncertain about the direction of my life lately. The prospect of joining the cutthroat job market looms big as I get closer to graduation. I value the variety of opportunities my chosen work path offers. But this also

I have a strong interest in social work, psychology, food, education, politics, and all kinds of art. Even though I know I don't have to choose just one yet, I occasionally feel under pressure to do so. As I consider my alternatives, I'm lucky to have my parents' financial and emotional support.

Maybe my indecisiveness stems from my Sagittarius temperament, which makes us curious about everything. But I'm aware that I'm not the only one who feels this way. Many young individuals, particularly those pursuing creative careers, struggle with the same issue: having too many possibilities and being afraid of feeling constrained. How do we make a decision?

Julie, a young lady trying to navigate life, is the subject of film The Worst Person in the World. She alternates between being a medical student, a psychotherapist, a retail employee, a writer, and a photographer.

Julie is shamelessly herself; even when things are uncertain, she follows her instincts and takes risks. She falls deeply in love. She then moves on to someone else after falling out of love. Julie feels like the worst person in the world as a result. She says:

I feel as though I never finish anything. I experiment with different things.

I find inspiration in what Julie perceived as a weakness. She is brave, loyal to herself, and follows her heart. Her tale reflects the existential crises that every young adult, particularly those in their twenties, experiences, even if this lifestyle is undoubtedly unstable and unsustainable for the majority of working-class individuals.

Sylvia Plath writes in The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath:

"I can never be all the people I want to be, read all the books I want to read, and lead all the lives I want." I will never be able to teach myself every talent I desire. What makes me want it? I want my life to be filled with all the many hues, tones, and physical and mental experiences that are available. And I have terrible limitations.

These lyrics encapsulate my feelings, as well as those of many individuals in their twenties: We were overwhelmed by how much we could do. paralyzed by future-related worry and anxiety. longing for connection, adventure, and knowledge.

When you don't sure what you want from life or which route is best for you, it might feel like insurmountable. However, I've come to the realization that I can't accomplish all I want to do at once. I made the decision to concentrate on one item at a time.

I have been working on my writing lately. I was terrified of releasing any of my work for a very long time. I was even afraid to write for myself, but I must practice if I ever want to be a decent writer. So I made this newsletter/blog. Every day, I sense my confidence increasing. I'm not hurrying the process, but I'm still finding my voice.

It hasn't been easy, but I'm attempting to maintain a weekly post schedule in the interim. Nevertheless, I am forcing myself to focus on writing, which is what I am now drawn to.

I may come to the realization that writing is no longer what I want to do once I graduate, but for now, I'm concentrating on the here and now. I've decided to work on a project that I'm enthusiastic about using my privileges and leisure time. Later in life, like Julie in The Worst Person in the World, I can always switch careers. This, I admit, may be challenging, particularly for those who are excluded.

I have some suggestions for you if you ever find yourself in a similar situation: Give yourself permission to be a novice at anything. Try a variety of things, but not all at once. We become overwhelmed when we attempt to do everything at once. Consider what is calling to you at this moment. Which of your interests or passions do you currently identify with the most? Be disciplined, give yourself grace, and give it a try.

You can always try something else if you decide it wasn't for you along the process. There is yet time. Do not be concerned. You'll be alright.